life still goes on and the earth still spinning no matter what happens.. (at least compare to human’s life, earth’s a much-more-longer). your inevitable death still comes after tens of years, maybe life is just about a journey, no one can shake the world when he/she dies, therefore when anything unhappy, upset, happens, just stay strong and move on…
try to get focus, you’ll never knows when miracles happen. as i said before, i hope someday, someone, somewhere, there will be ppl that appreciate and treasure what i did, then i would die for it. nth to discredit anyone in my life, but i just think that ppl tends to not appreciate things when they have it and they usually mourn when they lost something they never thought is so important in their life. maybe i’m tiny? maybe everything is tiny at sometimes or less weight in some ppl’s heart at some times.
maybe some ppl just lack of courage and bravery to face their problems. i couldnt do much as that’s other ppl’s problem. i gets emotional because i care, they say they know what is love, but in the end i do think that love is pure, it get out the most fundamental of yourself. that’s why many ppl gets emotional when comes to love problems. you can be very calm and you may think you are "wise" enough by doing this doing that, calming yourself, wow, like a pro. from what i think, no one should be a "pro" lover, when the day you think you are "pro" enough to solve your own loves problems, i think you already have twisted meaning of love, or maybe you just dont know what is love.
i need some courage, but obviously i always end up as mamak jokes among
friends.. some friends did not encourage ppl when you are facing
problems, instead they think you deserve it.. maybe i chose wrong kind
of friends? maybe that’s why i seldom attend large group of "yum cha"
occasions? haha, sometimes friends are about disrespect about each
others. find a weak spot and keep attack it as a joke, and you can
always only act as nth happens or just smile "pai-sehly" when that happens. i used to not appreciate by ppl, because by the time i need help, some friends that i thought might help did not show up at all! what a disappointment.. instead when they ask for my help… i’m the first but i will not be the last to help them..
i need to thank yu eik, yee jin, chien huey, yu qing, pei ling, kar pei, pik sent, shu min sister (i still dont know how to spell your name), my mom, my sister, simmay, ei leen, wei leong, jia huey, huey in for the encouragement and console during the time. thank you for caring about me. thank you very much oh!
wish? hope? ppl say that you should fight for your happiness.. i’m tired, and i’m also fatigue after long stretch. maybe i already lost most of my bravery and courage in prolonged disappointment and uncertainties.. i just hope, i just wish i could go on with a relationship, when problems comes, we will solve it. just need one more chance… if the ppl that far more worst than me deserve more than a second chance, i do hope i did enough to secure a second chance… i will fight on, never give up, but i feel i’m tired, reluctant to give up, just feel like my energy is draining out..
love is pure, love is fundamental. of course, you can live on without love. but your life is never complete if you dont have love. (what i mean here not caring of family, friends, ok? i know some ppl just like to oppose wht i trying to say…)
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