not a very good day, or not a very good season to me?it seems that recent months, or should i say after started my postgraduate journey, i fall into a period that plague will illness and injuries. let alone my asthma strike me again, and everything surrounding me is starting to suffocate me.
maybe life is like a sinusoidal graph, sometimes you’re up, sometimes you’re down. i hope my life will not drop like wall street’s stock and certainly get through this turbulating period. suddenly found out that a best friend of mine doing something that i can not “tahan”. yes i admit i did the wrong thing first, i left a very bad comment into someone’s profile, but i feel very bad about it and retract and deleted the comment, and also issued an apology to that person. however this friend i must say thank you for explaining so detail about my comment to the particular person and hey, thank you for publishing my whole real name too! thank you for “blacking” me out! i issued my dissatisfaction to him but it seems that he thinks i deserved his treatment…hmm…makes me in deep thoughts.
most of the time i usually help out my friends when they in touble. minor things, like in a gathering when they said some cold jokes that cool downs the whole atmosphere, i usually jumps out and divert the attention so that these so called “friends” will not suffer further humiliation as most of ppl i met have bad breathe! however in my turn of having such occassions they either further humiliate me or just making fun of me. i tend to encourage ppl when they are down, but when i facing tons of challenges what i get is further humiliation. if you all still behave like this how i suppose to bring my gf to let you know? forgive me that i’m so secret and low profile about telling details about my gf, not that i’m “lansi” or what, just because i think love life is a personal and private thing, like i never interest and ask about your love life and in return i also do not “advertise” my love life. ask whatever you want, when i want to tell, sure i will, when i dont, please dont force me. i still remember once at a yum cha session that a friend of mine bring his gf and in the end they “intergorate” her until the atmosphere is so paiseh that leave a mark in my heart…that day i didnt speak anything but i thrilled at the way they bombard questions…since then, as protective measures i usually seldom or never mention my love life in front of my friends..
recent days it’s hard to even find a person to chat with online..even harder to meet a old friend. everyone seems busy, maybe the world really do cold, without time and effort to care about friends. maybe i should start become a big guy, dont be so naive that think i should treat friends sincerely and my friends will treat me sincerely in return… revise my “policy” toward friends.. easy to said that, in the end i might still treat my friend will full heart while my friends?…ai, hard to say. seems that i lack the charm and respects within my friends.. seldom gets any congratulations and encouragement, never a warmful hello too. lastly, i wrote so many articles here, no one seems leaving comment here, while some big boobs girl write just about anything meaningless, they receive tons of comments…life is unfair right?
grow up, mr goh…welcome to the big man’s world!
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