愁前山

this is a “restless” season. well, the exam paper pass up before 4pm 21.11.2008.  i can finally consider the exam season for this semester is finally over, yet something new and challenging is going to start, sooner than i thought.

dont know how many times i’ve said that this is the semester i finally start understand yet defining the meaning of “study”. it’s not about just getting good grades in exams anymore yet the syllabus is forcing us to think, rethink, and understand. i start realize that what previously i been through (primary school, secondary school, even undergraduate years) mostly are rubbish. i quite sympathy to my juniors especially those still in local studies as i think what they lacks is guidance, motivations to real path as mostly our cultural roots retricted us to think independently. all we learned before is technique to memorize, unlike western learning which provokes thinking and problem solving skills. this is why we asians can manage to settle or finish plenty of jobs in a short time, we’ve trained to work hard, work much…we tend to memorize everything, anything, if you cant, you’re loser. however, the quality of the jobs might not neccessary up to the quality intended..yet, it’s acceptable! some students thinks doing plenty in assignments is great, good work, and pathetically teachers or lecturers tends to give grades according to the kilograms of their assignments..dont get wrong! weight! usually you’ll found that students who hand in the thickest homework is the highest mark of all class. i really started to think why work smart? copy and put in everything and dont care it’s relevant or not, and usually you wins!

once i attended a seminar, the difference of western and eastern education is westerners tend to let their children thinks, and most important is that they tend to develop various systematic yet efficient way to find infomation as quick as possible. what they believe is that infomation will never disappear if you stare it in a safe place, therefore finding it is more important than memorizing it. there are so manythings in the world, how can you possibly remember everything??? however, asians, especially chinese are “master” of memory. since the dawn of our life, we’ve being treated to memorize what we read, which makes us robots of hardworkers, never have more than single ways to handling problems. i failed to get great grades because everything i learn something, i try to know what’s the use of these things, try to understand, for me understanding is more useful than memorising miserably. yet my way still haven’t succeed yet. work hard or work smart? my world still ruled by those ppl who think otherwise, ya, if you are bad in memorising things, hmm… great chance you’ll fail your test, but if you have good brain to twist fast, you may think wht you have studied is rubbish when you entered the “big world.

这一个学期又接近了尾端，这也是笔者呆在ukm的第七个学期。可以说，这一个学期是在阵阵病痛和烦怒中度过的。不过黑暗中又看见光线，只要不放弃希望，艰难时刻依然会过去，英雄还能有一番作为。

很多人说理科生转去文科易如反掌，事实如何还是见仁见智。也许我们的教育除了问题？还是我们适应能力太差？这一转变可谓笔者一个很大的挑战，很艰辛的挣扎。以往做功课的时候，理性思维要我们精简明确简单陈述事件，感性思维却要我们参杂一些理性元素，长篇阔论的你说我讲。这一个学期上了一课，原来数学也可以那么的“文学”，统计学可以那么的“戏剧化”，那一天的presentation，让笔者有了深深的领悟，原来笔者以往所学的“科学”是那么的没力量。看来笔者淡出pure-science是正确的，越来越有感以前读的都是垃圾，根本对于大众、决定起不了什么作用。

这一个学期亦是笔者在ukm的第7个学期。这一个学期幸亏还有mass com那一班学妹们“陪伴”，为苦闷、寒冷的硕士班学崖点上一盏闪烁的灯。hey，我们的短片一定要成功！这一个学期空闲的时间除了陪女朋友外，就是过去看看mass com是何一为事，原来可以那么有趣。机会，是个很玄的东西。如今摆在面前的都不知是不是成功的踏脚石。在一个很偶然的情况下，洁恩学妹告诉笔者有个大专短片比赛，哈……是个成名的机会。笔者看来就埋头去干吧！笔者没有什么拍短片经验，然后很多人又说笔者就是爱“搞事”，当然这是笔者的事，笔者喜欢尝试新的东西，你们不喜欢就罢，不要来闲言闲语，最讨厌那些口臭的人，当然也不期望有人会反省；还是希望朋友们在笔者开口后可以帮忙，希望这一次得到的鼓励能多过那些无谓的“废话”，也希望由此创出一片天。原本2008年尾笔者有两个比赛，《全国激励演讲大赛》看来被逼放弃，专心攻打“短片”吧！很可惜presentation的时候失败了，失去了器材的赞助和经费……也让很多人失望了。老师说我们还有另一个机会，就是参与另一个项目，只要拍好了影片交给他就好了。很可惜笔者如今没有器材……这是笔者最后一次能够代表ukm参加一些比赛，没想到结局如此，当然还不能放弃，也许奇迹会出现？

《全》也是一个可以让笔者展现和表现的机会，可谓学习如何演讲，不会紧张，很多人以为自己很会presentation，演讲的时候小动作多多，傻笑，发抖，都是要检讨和改进的。很可惜，笔者不是铁人，还有final对待笔者，功课多多，等笔者充分准备好了才去参加吧！口才重要吗？笔者会觉得很重要，滔滔不绝总令人感到很欢喜，说得好总让人觉得会做得好。是一种“假象”，很多人都会买帐的假象。很后悔笔者没有上 public speaking的课，也许很多时候都可以扭转乾坤了吧！讲流利的英语重要吗？那些说不重要的人可以去吃大便。很多时候，我们就栽在英语的表达能力不佳下。管你文 章写得多么扣人心璇，多么能了解沉长文章，表达不好还是没有作为。

7个学期以来笔者都呆在OT，算是满老的会员了。搞华乐真的需要一股很强的毅力，那一班小瓜不知会不会有放弃的一天？往往有接班人的问题？不……杠起了责任，人人都有处理事情的方法，事情做好了就好了，不是吗？小瓜们，加油吧！

考试，如此的紧张，如此的压迫，如此的无聊；一个很“奇怪”的季节。很奇怪这一次考试没有以前的那份心情，也许太多的事情发生了，脑袋overload了。

朋友们，近来好吗？抱歉未能参与阿练的生日会。

2008到了冬天的季节，当然不希望生活也降温到冰点，这一个学期，没有一个确定的开始，却有个模糊的结束。